current animation project and gay dumbeldore

i checked mail on yahoo and found out about gay dumbeldore news from JK.
that's why im here to update my journal on DA.??!!! haha

it really depends on how ppl look at it. sexual orientation, skin color, racism
belief, religion, good or evil, to simply happiness sadness, live and death.
it's adult topic i belief.. and i personally thing that
JK introduced it all in her novel.
she killed her characters. showing candy moments indulging in warm hugs hot mugs
and sharing wicked confectionaries with friends and some cruelty death or love ones a
lost of an ear~badd moments (uh ahaha*).
it's a blessing to be capable of showing the world what you see in your head.. behind
your eyes.
i just love it that her dumbeldore is gay. im glad she's so open minded. she's always been
like that and this is even more.. and somehow i smiled for this.

what restricted me from drawing. honestly sometimes my fear in ppl criticism of my work
keeps me in my closet. sometimes i draw what ppl want to see.. not what i wanted to see.
i make what ppl might like.. not what i like to make. that's the heaviest factor that keeps me
away from art. i dont want to be amature forever.. i want to earn a living on doing what i love.
but yeah. dumbeldore is gay .out of the love that JK didnt denied or disregard her character's
existance/ her imagination. she told the world what she sees without distorting it.
she didnt hide and holds no fear to give honor to her beloved characters in her imagination.
i know it's stupid but somehow it makes me more alive
it's not the gay thing that's important. it's just the feeling that is in. me think.
it's not about going against the world or try to be odd or anything. may be..
it's a talk about not to feel ashame of your nature? lol okay right .. my nature is weird.
but yeah.. im learning to fear less and step up create more so we can enjoy and have
interesting new things to see be open minded so you will see many things.
feel like a child who has no anti-thoughts so you can feel the raw excitement
that you have lost over time speading on this earth. learn new things find out more..
like you never know it before. well but this depends on how you want to live your life~

anyhow this news

gives me more peace to love myself for what i see in my head.

and cheers to our gay head master. i dont care if i will ever make a living on doing some anime
or art that has some gay touchy feeling. i'll just keep making my art out.
ph 3 ph 4 bla bla if i still have a drive for it. it's my sketchbook,,my playground.


about ph3 i said a long while ago that i was engaging in making it. unfortunately i have not been working
on it recently. but dont worry fanart folks. we are still breathing. i'll get back to it as soon as my
school animation project is done. how can i ever stop doing my little nonsense ph clips. i can never get enough.

i'd been busy doing animation project to fin my first school year. i'd leant a lot about how the real
production work flow really is like. and get my way of working into more formal and right way.

it's really challenging coz the work load i picked on doing is really killing.
but i'll definitely show it to you guys after i'd done it. which is a promise lol that you shall see it or i wont pass
my first year.
and ofcourse.. ph3 is something i never forget to get back to.

keep shining and be happy folks. do your drawing as if you do it on your happy saturday and sunday. God bless

2D animation ..WHERE? or im just blind

i'd been searching to see 2D animated clips out there
i tried cgsociety and stuffs and browsing
and only short short animated clip i saw.
like an experiment clip. are ppl giving up 2D?
does the seats belongs to Japanese already?
i mean, hey might not be Disney type but something
not japanese or cartoon network style kindda animation..
do you folks know a good where to see those stuffs?

internet is su vast and non came on to my search engine result.

im just blind dont know where or the 2Ds are hiding in shade?
i saw only 3Ds i know we need to do 3D these days.. if you know would be
real sweet if you can tell me where to find them.
i searched youtube on pencil test and found glen kean arts
cool stuffs but still pretty old .. anything more alive and fresh?
if you know a bit is good. dont hesitate. im poor in keeping up information. thx pals.

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thanks for subscribing this is so nice of you.
i owe you wordss of thank you (tip my hat haha)
anyways this is what im currently doing.
im on an animation project.
and it's already started.. yay
but also mean that i might not put up so many
illustration works aoww.
but i'll keep this account update with how i go
on the project.
also the school starts to get busy.
ohh man im so into disney lately
i plan to put some fan art asap oh i wanna draw them out a lot

ok pals thank you for visit and being around
you guys are so kindddddddd to me
dont ask if we can be friend ofcourse we can,,chill outt

now im working my butt off so i hope i might be able to put something
on DA sooner or later and sorry for parry hotter 3, it's that this time
it's not music vid anymore im making an animation story and it's original.
might take me almost a year to finish but yeah fight fight fight!!

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alone in my room. light from computer and halogen heater.
i graduated from my language school last thrusday.
i moved to somewhere close to shijuku so i can go to my new school easily.
lots of changes, lots of problems.. ironna koto ni deatte.
lights go off, new lights from somewhere i never seen lits up.
the current pushed me with the flow
departing from a train station in the middle of the night...
get lost.
only me and my reflection from the passenger window.
the train is quiet i can see only few passenger.
tired faces.
the end of the day, on the way to a new station.
to a new destination, tired faces.
the train moves on.
got lost.
looking out side we are cutting tru remoted area.
i can hear silence.
i can hear the breeze outside.
half fear of the dark
i got lost
half conscious
trying to stay alert learning the place with no idea at all.
ki ga tsuita toki, jibun no me wo miteita.
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lots of notes come asking about how to make animation.
please refer to my old journal entries. i wrote them in details there

feedback about parry hotter animation, thank you very much.
you view both of the animations on youtube.com
some folks uploaded them on the site and they just noted me.
thank you very much again.
so visit>> youtube.com and search under the keyword "parry hotter"
should come out.

questions about tool of trade.
i dont know what to do about commission. it seems i tried to start
getting on with it so many times but i just failed.
it's self decipline i guess. forgive me.

next animation project.
im starting to animate again. the next one might not be parry hotter 3 haha.
but it might happen in the future only if HP movie or book attack me again!?! i got easily impressed haha. i like HP it makes me feel relax watching it, reading it. like i can forget worries and dont have to think much just get lost in the novel or the movie screen swollowed by the beauty of the scene.

my new fav now is samurai champloo. man the voicing so cute!
it's my new aim to get myself to work in Manglobe.. perhaps.. it's just a thought for now.
i watched Zetsuai/ bronze yesterday and finally watched all Ai no kusabi. yeah i love Zetsuai and still feel i not having enough of the animation. it's a lovely animation really reminds me of how i had fallen in love with drawing so much. dashing cool geek charming. feel like new modern animations i watch these days couldnt make me feel that dokidoki anymore. first i thought coz i grow older so i dont feel that overwhelm anymore.. but yesterday proven me thought wrong. i can still have that feeling. it's the animation that put that good spell on me.

it's like having a new life a new journey since by the end of this month i will be entering this animation school. im all excited and also aware of my own pace. i has been watching anime a lot these few days since i grad from my japanese lang schooling.
i was amazed i can feel the laziness that much inside me. easily say to myself hell yeah i will be a good animator animate my own animation someday and now im sitting watching they animate dancing dried leaf i was just like oh hell will i sit with all the patience in the world and animate each dancing leaf with passion? haha do i have that much love? i even feel lazy to draw something like motorbike and if i have to animate a bike racing scene for my cooley character... haha how about crown of ppl walking in train station? dogs and cats. fish swimming
who knows may be i will find myself doing it this coming few months. or may be not. at all. it's not all worse coz i grad from an animation school from thailand and animated really really short act clips that reminds me i ever put effort into making animation more than a month long labor or else i'll freak out more haunting myself on this. having no confidence knowing im going to go to anime school within next two weeks. animate fish! dancing leaf! bouncing basketball. wasting all money and time in japan

but i thx my parents for buying me this chance. tho i dont know what's going to happen after i grad from this school. will i do my own anime or i ended up hopeless. i know im lucky to be here.

i belief we who wants to take this art things seriously feel kindda fear. i mean not all. but i myself do feel this fear.
we want to be successful in our own way
we want to make it go smoothly and nice.
i was not born with that attitude of watch me im going to be an artist it's like a dream i nver ever dreamt of working on it as a profession.
but since i grad from highschool i chose this road.
to make a living on my hobby.
what now? another diary like journal entry.

worries and fear that i cant share it with ppl close to me coz i dont want to make them worry too much. still i need to speak out. and i just did it.
thx.
all the best for you guys,
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happy new year 07 i dont have time to update journal at all. now im back to japan before i say anything more i would like to thank Wen-M on this page for this subscribe you got for me. thank you very much.

im back to japan on ninth. got some trouble with my computer. japanese language course still got two more months to go tho im dead tired with it. i still got email asking me about animation. let me organize things around me first and i'll get back to you. for all the visits comments from you guys always encourage me to produce more work. thanks for being around. cheers!

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